Friday, May 23, 2014 \\ 0 comment(s)
It has been a while huh? So pasai apa saya tiba tiba update blog ni kan PASAI APA NI KAN ( k over )
Ouh I really want to talk about 'past'. Yup. General okay, jangan nak lingkupkan 'past' is all about lovers, but it is included anyway
Kalau tanya persepsi orang pasal 'past', we will get different definition by each differ people. And pada saya, ada 'past' yang kena letgo, ada past yang kena still hold
"Apa benda yang jadi during my past yang buat aku susah sangat nak move on?"
And my answer would be "when you have made the wrong decision that will definitely change your whole life" "Can you please be specific miss fatin? Coz your answer is too.............general" "Anything, but love is excluded"
"In addition, it has been almost a year but I can't stop from overthinking about...you know"
Eh eh dah macam novel pula kan this post. Well, I am 19 now so mestilah berbeza gaya tulis aceh. Okay dah jom move to the acah acah punya issue. Yang atas tu tak ada kena mengena dengan love okayyyyyy. Continue
"What if I asked you about love?"
"That long distance relay that'd been 4 years but then I decided to let go because I think it is totally a waste of time but I feel lucky since I don't have to face the 'move-on' phase coz the feelings were just disappeared macam gitu aje but I think it is because He is listening so thank God"
Alright so lets move to the next topic
"What type of person are you?"
"Well, tbh in real life saya ni macam heartless. And I don't know how to show my emotion through facial expression. I am not talkative. Saya susah nak gelak dengan lawak. I am quite serious even dengan kawan. And I know saya jenis yang membosankan but I don't mind about it. And I am not so into cerita love story dengan kawan and besides they are afraid to ask me abt those things since they already know yang saya ini sangat secrecy. But I cannot stop talking with my closest friends and with my special one of course and I am not that serious whenever saya dengan mereka idk why aku memang banyak personalities so what. A little bit childish dengan my most clingy friends ( kawan sekolah ) and my amer. And the most imp thing about myself is that I love photography since I was 12 until now. Well, tekan sini kalau nak tengok artwork saya masa saya form one sorry lah ayat dekat deviantart sumpah broken masa form 1 kan biasa lah tu huhuhuhu"
"So, tell me about Amer"
"Well, I never expected that I will fall for him. Masa memula jumpa tu first sekali masa interview JPA which was on April. But we didn't talk even a single word masa tu ( lagi pun both of us ada boipren and girlpren kan at that moment k haha ). Then sepanjang dekat intec memang saya lupa pun muka dia anyway why should I remember his face kan bukan ada apa apa pun haha except yang saya ingat dia sepet tu je. And he followed me on twitter masa October idk Ariff ( my classmate ) yang bagi dia twitter coz katanya...katanya lah dia cari saya masa ada kem tapi sayangnya saya tak terpilih pun for that sem.
Then saya duduk dekat cafe and perasan ada a group of boys ( amer and his friends ) yang asyik toleh dekat meja saya and taknak lah pulak kan perasan so I just ignore. Then masa berdiri tu he smiled at me and saya pun actually tak kenal sangat then main hentam je cakap 'Amer eh? Ouh' then I just smiled and blah haha. Then yang lain taknak cerita"
"How can you replace your first love dengan masa sekejap?"
"Nobody can replace the first love. This is what Amer and I have in common. Nak replace replace nak pergi mana? Kan. I mean first love itu past. So past should be past. There are a lot of reason why our relay ( I mean with our first love ) didn't work out long time ago and I believe Amer also has the same reason.
Since no one can be replaced, so I just consider it as a fresh start. Buku baru. Coz pada saya the word 'replace' tu macam you still want the old life with the the old memories just with different person. So, yup no one can be replaced. Besides, relay kalau jadi jadi lah. Kalau tak. there are a lot of things that should be done before we talk about marriage kannn so just go with the flow. We are still young"
So end of story