Monday, March 11, 2013 \\ 2 comment(s)
So I really want to blog something today. There are loads of thing that play in my mind at this moment. I spend 24-hours today laying on my bed doing nothing. I speak to myself and I keep pondering why and why I am so l-i-f-e-l-e-s-s
Yes, I am lifeless. I am anti-social. I don't like to go out. I don't like to talk to people. I don't like crowded place. I am a w-a-l-l-f-l-o-w-e-r
You know what, to be truth I am lonely. So lonely. I am a person that used to seek the same person to listen for what I want to say. But my problem is I always think before I tell them my story. If I can hold it, I will hold it. I know I am a boring person. One of the reason why people don't want to make friends with me. I don't have interesting topic to be guffaw with
I keep pondering why I always feel e-m-p-t-i-n-e-s-s in my life. Is it because I am too anti-social?
That is the answer. I am too anti-social. I don't know how to fulfill my time with something benefits. People might say I am strong enough to cope with d-e-p-r-e-s-s-i-o-n
But you know what, I used to cry because that is the only way I can let out all things that play in mind. But that 'emptiness feeling' won't fade away
I always cry.
That is me Fatin Amira Mazlan. People don't know I am that weak because I never cry in front of people before